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I am part of the team of ~The-Undiscovered and *Word-worth-1000-pics and also one of the four girls making Best of Weekly photomanip features

Best of... #118 &119 is out:
[link] Magnificent pieces of art from last weeks!

I think 2 years ago I was exactly the same position. After one certain thing I was bubbeling with emotions I needed to get out. Then I wrote two journals about that and it was quite funny to read them.. I mean.. 2 years ago I thought I was different person but I wasn't so much different.

Anyway, on weekend there was the LARP taken place in Tolkien's Middle-Earth on first age. High elves, their kings and princes and other elves.. and human tribes and dark Morgoth.. If you know the world what has been created, you can only imagine how great it most have feel to be there. i adored it there and so many ways, I did not want to leave.. it was all so much better there..

And I think I remembered how I felt after last game (2 years ago) and probably had time to prepare myself and try not to be such a fool myself.. but no.. I walked there, all my walls and protections up and I think it only needed one moment, to break it all.. and I was me again - that fool little girl who can mix reality and game, dream and hope impossible dreams.. But now I know - as 2 years ago, it will all past.. it always does but..

Anyway.. the game was great. I think the game 2 years ago was little better because then there was more to do for my clan (I was Haleth, leader of haladins).. this time we had very sure path in front of us, lojality put into one elf and we just following him whereever he goes. Not so much doubts and drama between clan or any other way as it was more "secret" this time - I mean the talking and trying to get one or other fraction doing thir or that... and I am afraid we looked too "unchangable and loyal" to anyone even trying to propose us anything else.. but that's a good thing, honestly..

On other things.. or still on the same thing, it just depends on the point of view.. I am in big mess.. I think even bigger when I thought. There are so many things I do not know and so many doubts that I just no way have all the information to make right choices and to be honest, I cannot afford making wrong ones.

Graduation tomorrow.. :S and I still do not have the jacket or how it is called over my dress.. shopping today...