Decived by veils of dark dream

Give me strength to face the truth, the doubt within my soul
No longer I can justify the bloodshed in his name
Is it a sin to seek the truth, the truth beneath the rose?
Pray with me so I will find the gate to Heaven’s door

I’m hoping, I’m praying
I won’t get lost between two worlds
For all I have seen the truth lies in between
Give me the strength to face the wrong that I have done
Now that I know the darkest side of me

How can blood be our salvation
And justify the pain that we have caused throughout the times
Will I learn what’s truly sacred?
Will I redeem my soul, will truth set me free?

Blinded to see the cruelty of the beast
It is the darker side of me
The veil of my dreams deceived all I have seen
Forgive me for what I have been
Forgive me my sins
The Truth Beneath The Rose - Within Temptaion

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(I hope the print will come soon)
And the title should be "Deceived by veils of dark dreams", but it was too long...

Dedicated for =AnnaKirsten for her birthday what was while ago and I tried to make it ready for that time but it somehow started to linger... and lingered until now. She has been so great support for me. Always having advices how to cope with my life, telling me not to give up. And I am so thankful for you

For =freaky665 dark feeling contest. And the emotion regret. I wanted something different than all the solitude and sorrow what would be so easy to portray. But regret - a complex feeling and to show it - complicated too.

One of the most powerful songs I have ever heard. And somehow, this is so special for me. I think I have told you about the books I used to write.. and the last one I did (what is the best and my own favorite)- when I listened that song and read the lyrics - it was so much about the main characther. And maybe so much about me too, as I wanted to be like the main char. The powerful lyrics, the emotion on that song, melody - storm within. I could not pick no other song for this work.

I never planed it to be so dark. When I usually decide that this will go under dark art, they are mixture of dark elements and fantasy but this - maybe the atmosphere, maybe something else - but it looks so dark for me. And very emotional also - I could almost feel and hear those thought she most have - the regret of things in past she has done - things she believed were true and justified but only to realize now that she has been following false Gods, killed for her believes what were just dark thoughts put into her mind. All she did came from her faith, what was false one. All those dreams they had, all the salvation what was promised to her. She never even believed she could do all the harm and pain she has done now - she has seen her dark said, her cruelty and hate. She has been one of those, living in lies, for lies, behind the veil on night. She is creature of the night... is there still hope for her? Can she make up what she has done wrong in past? Is there any justice and what will be the punishment for her? Will her regret be enough to save her soul or is she condemned for the end of the time?

And those symbols.. I cannot go without them. Those dragonflies - creatures of light - keepers of good and pure. Can she only watch them, see them but never dare to touch them as there is a change that the cruelty and hate inside her will hurt those pure creatures. The sky - there is light and magic, beauty and royalty in night too. The lightning - maybe the way she lives out her anger, her inner battle between what she has believed and now sees. And the water - all the reflection thing - the soul reflects back... and there is no way deceiving a reflection - it will tell the truth. And the portal or the light circle on the water -as I think she is some kind of sorcerer, so this is what she has casted - is it a curse for those who deceived her or is it hope? Can she overcome her past?

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