You can't escape the wrath of my heart
Beating to your funeral song - You're so alone
All faith is lost for hell regained
And love dust in the hands of shame - Just be brave
Hold me - Like you held on to life
When all fears came alive and entombed me
Love me - Like you love the sun
Scorching the blood in my vampire heart...
Him- Vampire Heart
you can listen it here: [link]

We have eternity - You have eternity, I have only now.
from "Children of Dune"

Details - Details - [link]

For - his images keep me always inspired... and it looks lately that when I had first only one stock artist I use every picture, then his stock is coming the second one. Plus he is such a great friend for me, always supporting, always here when I need him. I just feel there is not enough to thank him.

My entry for =freaky665 Dark feeling's contest. And my emotion is solitude.

And now to the story - of this image.. and the making of this image and it will be long. This work was never meant to be look like this. I just knew when my exams end, I will take my digital table and manip. I am so tried and sick of studying that I want to manip. I have had the background nebula for long time. I planned to use it for another work but after horrible cut out.. it just did not fit and the work was never finished. And for long time I have wanted to create something with big windows and curtains flowing. I first planned to get contrabass player there but then I discovered that the stock image was so little and everything else was so huge that I would lose so much if I use it. As I was already going with some musical instrument. I tried harf and then another pose of violin from the same stock I finally go. I already paint the hair, cut out, manip the dress and colors and.. then I had to go sleep and before I fell in sleep, I knew.. it just don't fit there and.. so, on the morning, I started with it all over again. I had the vision of candles and then the girl in the middle and I think it looks much better this way.

What and why? I wanted to create a vampire. I did not had no vampire image before and as I have been listening him lately too much (all those melancholic and sad and dreamy songs) even thought I never used to like them, but now I do. And some of the songs I found from my sister's music folder - I had never heard and they really impressed me. "Vampire Heart" was one of them and I just knew it will go to the image.

I wanted to create own universe - maybe too much Stargate lately, too. I wanted to gorgeous, majestic nebula on the sky and she, the vampire, one and lonely, who lives in the night, creature of the night (what was my first choice for the title too), but... when I started to look the finished image, I remembered the quote from miniseries made from one of my favorite books - "Children of Dune" and so that quote inspired me to name this work Eternity. Even thought there the eternity was little different, the idea remains. Vampires, creatures of night and cursed - there will be no sun for them as there will be no way out. They are cursed with eternal life and they have to go with it, never changing, never growing old but everything around them still pass - clocked does not stop for them. The will see how all the have hold dare and get used - it will be gone one day and they remain. They may have eternity but others have only now. And they can only see how now pasts and everything will be gone - but they stay.

Can we even imagine the solitude that kind of creatures most be? Noone will understand the world like they do as we are passing and we treasure the moments, hunt passing values and we have passions, we are like fire - burn fast but we burn out soon. For them, our wants and joys, victories and achievements - they are nothing. They do not feel the joy of the same things. They would look cold for us but that is the only way for them to live.

So, she - she cannot stand the way of looking all those things what had meaning once, all those tasteful thing that now look so cold and what she does not need anymore... She has turned back for that world and accepted her own kingdom, endless and eternal. But with that, she has also sentenced herself the endless loneliness, solitude. Noone will follow her to the dark kingdom of night, her isolation and exile.
I am not sure if I managed to say out all what I meant. But maybe it is not even needed - you just have to look and feel it yourself.

Stock:
Liam-stock | Little-stock | Ro-stock | SilkAssassin | SilkAssassin | Silkassassin | Falln-stock | Spiritsighs-stock | +vines, smoke and some of the space brushes from *FrozenStarRo shop [link] | + personal