Nemo

For *FrozenStarRo and =flordelys Visual Sentiments Contest.

Nemo - no one in Latin.

My tribute to Captain Nemo, one of my favorite literature characters. It's weird how the same book can give you so different emotions. I read Verne's book first time in quite early ages in my childhood. I had learned to read quite late and after ABC, I refused to read any children book. I found nothing from there and oneday my mother came home with very old edition of "Mysterious Island" she has bought from antiquity fair. It had old yellowed pages and very beautifully painted big ship on it. And it was huge for me - the number of pages but I took the book and I felt the magic on the first moment. It took me a lot of time and a lot of patience but I read it all and fell love of it - the adventure, the human type Verne describes. And after that I read all of his books I could find translated in my mother tongue.

On those time, it was all about the adventure, the mystery, the magic of science. And then, I grow up and for years never read those books because the emotion I had was to sacred to be risked that I might disappoint as sometimes happens with things I used to love so much. I grow up and the magic is gone. But I always kept saying that "Mysterious Island" is one of my favorite books as it was so magnificent for me. Maybe it was part of why I became who I am - why I started to love science.. treasure those principles I have.

Anyway, this year while I was packing to move to country I was choosing books to take with me. There are some what I like to re-read every summer or over some summers - Robin Hobb's books.. Dune serie, Zelanzy Amber serie. And I took the same old copy of "Mysterious Island" into my hand and I decided - I will read it again. I take my change. And I do not regret. But this time I found so much more on this book. It was not only the adventure, the magic of science.. the depth of the chars, those parts of their I did not understand 10 years ago. The beauty within. And when the story got to Captain Nemo I just started to cry. I have never thought the way I did now about him. I felt sorry for him, of course and I am sure his death made me cry even back then but for other reasons. And now I even start to cry while writing this. I saw something in him what is not seen in so many others... he chose loneliness, he chose the life under water as he had lost so much above water that he could not bare going on. But for him - the loneliness - it was not prison for him. It was his endless leagues of wonders, world free of conquerors, pointless violence and the anger of mankind what he had seen. He chose loneliness to run away, yes, but with it he chose a new world what was more of his liking - where he could live by the rules he wished. By choosing loneliness he chose freedom, peace and contempt for him.

I have heard so many people saying for me that I have run away from my problems and turned back to other people, chosen loneliness instead being out there but I think those people who are saying this to me see loneliness as a prison - place where I could just hold everything to myself and drown in self pity. I really wanted to portray with this image that loneliness, isolation, can be much more. It do not have to be negative emotion, punishment. It can be bliss - it can be a place for me where I can make my pictures, dream and wonder. It is a place where I know is no shadows and all the limits are beatable.

So, I would like to say - world is not black and white and some people are different - they have their own world, own dreams and their own hopes and for some people word loneliness does not mean the same what you think. Like there is a beauty in dark, there is contempt and happiness in loneliness.

And maybe someday the world is ready to know the man under the water, the one who calls himself Captain Nemo is just an like any other man and there is renationalisation that prince Dakkar is just out of his time and concept but genius. And by the life he chose he gifted himself the world and peace....

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